Saturday, December 27, 2014

dcmbr

ya so long not write in this page, so long long time
udah akhir semester 5 yang melelahkan, ujian, skills lab dan semua tentang prosto udah selesai
capek preparasi, capek bikin gtsl & gtp yang selalu punya pr
capek tiap minggu bikin dk prosto
capek ke salemba 3 dari 5 hari kuliah
capek semester 5 ini akhirnya selesai, gak bisa menerka apa apa buat nilaisih... (selalu)
everything is done, holiday is coming
well i dont know, can it call as holiday? ya mayan deh day off

semester 6? taun depan? mau ngapain?
taun ini selesai sama yang namanya bem, terima kasih orang orang hebat lainnya yang ada di bem 2013/2014
alhamdulillah, udah menyelesaikan amanah sebagai kepala biro kesekretariatan selama setaun
ya walaupun saya tau, saya belum maksimal menjalankannya

selalu ada banyak hal yang bisa diambil hikmahnya atau bahkan ada aja yang disesali
taun ini kalo urusan kuliah ya tetep stabil, bikin dk H-1, belajar dikebut semua materi bareng bareng di kosan, belum ada yang diubah masih sama dari taun ke taun
kalo urusan yang.....i almost write in this page....
fluktuatif kayaknya pernah ada badai, terus ada pelangi, hujan deras, cerah, cerah, cerah, berawan, kayaknya semua ada
kalo yang cerah, cerah, cerah itu ya because I have done break my fear
every fear that always haunted me, parents
ya well, mereka mengerti kok kalo sekarang anaknya udah bukan anak kecil lagi mungkin
respon baik cukup baik bahkan
cerah yang lain itu the other parents
he met mine, i met his
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last thing,

"That I came all this way, with so much to say
 But all that came out was happy holiday"

Friday, June 20, 2014

(un)wanted day

sometimes that i wish everything went better
well wish that i hadn't had today
i wish today was good enough to say good things instead of crying all day long
if I have many days in years, maybe today in this year will be a day that i don't want to
(actually today was a day that i had been waiting for)
something that i want to say, is become just another combination word by word
something that will be untold sentences
will be another draft in my phone
and someday when the time has gone by, i will delete it

curse everything today seems useless
say inappropriate words seems better for a while
well, expectation will leads disappointment. for me, today
even my expectation only 2/10
and sometimes, that i wish i had no feeling

screw today
screw everything that happened at this day

Friday, April 11, 2014

perception

what the hell is perception?
when something being unclear, perception is needed
make same perception can make that thing is gone or getting worse
but the same perception, perhaps better than different perception

when something being unclear, just shot what's the matter is
don't make some statements that can be a new perception
make it clear, to reduce other perception that can make thing is getting worse

who care with perception?
me? not really
him? I don't know
them? her? stranger? I have no idea at all

one thing I really care is, don't left any unclear thing with unclear perception
no one like to be left by something that unclear with different and unclear perception
make a perception with clear statement, please Sir
changeable mind? yes, me too
just don't make it like a messy puzzle, because it's hard to see the picture


last thing I don't really care is;
about all these posts here and whom will read it
when I just pour thoughts here, everything seems better
night, for anyone who make me write this

Sunday, February 23, 2014

rough days

maybe I've never learnt about these as much these days
maybe this relationship will teach me more than I've ever imagine before
maybe he is not the most perfect guy in the universe
maybe I'm not the best creature he met
maybe ours ain't like the other

if only I didn't pass these day
if only I just did the right thing
if only I could rewind the times
if only he was so mean

if I didn't pass these day, I would never learnt about so much things
rough days? yes absolutely!!
when I remember what I did, it just bring me to the guiltiest atmosphere
I've learnt so much, not only about me-things but also him and ours
what he did, is literally right and I can't deny anything. even a thing
I knew, I was the fire of this flame and he was the water
everything maybe seems so right. note it, seems
but what we've been through were too rough
maybe our relationship is not the best story in world
but, thank God I have the best story to tell and to learn about
if he was not as kind as these day, we would end up our stories

and blaming someone is not best thing to make them feel guilty
:')

Friday, February 7, 2014

Sunday, January 19, 2014

back in time

2014, times flies so faaastt!!!
ya dari tahun-tahun kemaren emang gak punya resolusi atau target apa pun
karena jalanin aja mau gimana liat nanti
awal tahun ini, were like usual
had a new year event with family

this holiday, is not like the other holiday
ketika liburan biasanya gabut all the time cuman di rumah, bangun siang terus nonton dvd sampe bosen
sekarang bangun pagi, terus ada aja urusan yang harus diurus di kampus (hhhfft)
kalau kemaren jadi staff aisi yang namanya cuman ada di fkg doang
tahun ini aisi dipecah jadi media dan kestari
lalu saya menjadi kepala biro keskretariatan (re: kestari), yang hampir semua fakultas punya
okay! jalanin aja ya mau gimanapun juga
semoga bisa jadi kabir yang amanah dan yang baik buat semuanya
I hope so

terus ada yang sangat-sibuk-sekali, liburan di jkt nya bentar
yaudah mau gimana lagi (hhhfft)
terus lagi, nilai semester kemaren ya alhamdulillah mau dapet berapapun
semoga bisa lebih bagus lagi buat kedepannya

tahun ini maunya.....
gamau yang macem-macem, mau semuanya berjalan lancar for everythiiiiing


last and randomly:
if I could turn back in time and thought everything that I had before,
the first thing that pop in mind is : he wouldn't be my boyf (hahaha)